Dentist

for the last few days ive been so busy working and cleaning and going through stuff to get rid of, that i havent had time to blog on here. plus nothing really exciting happening either. I went to the dentist today, which normally i dont mind(Idont fear the dentist lol) however today he was pretty annoying trying to convince me to do so many expensive things. I had 2 cavities that needed to be filled thats why i was there but also to check out a tooth that approx 8 months ago broke in half and he told me to save. well sure enough it broke again, I suggested just pulling it to save time and money but nooo he wants me to fix it again (òh itll only come to $2000!) yikes so i told him id think about it. well then he starts going on that i have 2 wisdom teeth still ya well they have been there for about 10 years and havent givin me trouble. well he wants to pull them and oh thats only another $2000, then he want to whiten my teeth a little he says working in a public place like i do, it would be nice well thats only a few hundred. Yeesh what does he think Im made of, its deffinately not cash!

foam curlers

.so you remember back in the days tose old school foam curlers? you know, the ones your mother or grandmother would put in your hair the night before a scool picture. after you got out of the shower the would sit you down and begin the lengthy and painful proccess of placing tons of little foam rollers in your hair so close to your scalp it would pinch or pull. lol well ya those ones last night while cleaning out my office i found a bag of them, so what did i do lol? I decided i would curl my hair of course! well i didnt put in as many as my mom would have and i didnt roll them as tight, hoping that they would be kinda loose curls, well right before my hubby got home i started pulling them out sure that they would all be dry, but sadly no there were about 4 that were still damp so i had a bunch of curls with random damp wavy spots. lol oh well i fluffed it all up put it into a cute pony and away we went to dinner. it was still fun to roll my hair using them it reminds you of the old days.
have a good day all

chinese new year

well my awsome hubby surprised me with tickets to the all you can eat chinese restaurant;s new year celebration. it was wonderfull, altough i ate too much lol. but we all know its next to impossible to NOT eat too much at a chinese restaurant mmm... lol. Our puppy finally goes for his last shots and updates so we can bring him to the dog parks and puppy gatherings, i think i am more excited than he is. it will be so good for him to go out and make more friends. he is such a cutie pie. At the moment he is on the couch next to me looking at me like "i know i am the cutest" lol.
Terrible sister inlaw update. she has bought some old bunk beads for her 2 oldest boys( 4.5 and 3) and then she is going to stack the cribs of her 1 year old and the soon to be baby so that he wont have to be in her way when shes in the kitchen trying to get to her twinkies.
have a good day all

updates and entertaining

so the nurses at the lab told me only to wait 1 more month to try getting pregnant wity just the assistance that we are getting now, if it doesnt happen to insist for the IUI. when they go ahead with that they will try it up to 3 times for me. So that means in the matter of 4 or 5 months i will either be Lord willing, pregnant or be told there is nothing else they can do for me. So I am pretty excited and nervous about that im trying not to think of it too much but it is kind of hard.
Also on March 6 i will be holding an Epicure party woo hoo its been a while since i have entertained anyone let a lone a whole group of 20 - 40 people so i am also excited and nervous about that. as long as i can get a little more renos done and the house all clean and organized it should be good. oh and by the way everyone that sour cream banana bread recipee turned out really nice. the loaf was nice and moist and dense. mmm mmm good.
have a good day :)

lost babies

for the longest time now I have been able to not think about my misscarriages much. I was able to let it go in a way. but then reading a blog about a lost child reminded me of them. although they werent far along they were still my babies. I never got to meet them but i still love them. I remember the ultrasound photos once again the farthest one was only approx 3.5 months so it wasnt much, but still. so today i think i will take the time off of cleaning and relax before going to see our friends.

Stressed

well I have been driving 50 minutes each way to the lab for the last few days with many more to come to try to help me get pregnant, and although it can be tiring and uncomfortable im trying to stay positive that it is all worth it and will pay off in the end. that some day i will hold my beautiful baby and know the blessing that so many others recieve. which brings me to my terrible sister in law update: some family members and friends arent the most supportive of this 4th baby and the fact that she will neglect it along with her other kids. along with the fact that she refuses to clean her house or get a job, and what does she come up with as an excuse? that that is what GOD wants out of her! she writes that the Lord wants her to continue having babies even though she cant support them or care for them, that its the lords fault that she keeps getting pregnant and that in the bible it says women should stay at home etc... I am greatly frustrated by this, yes it does say in the bible to go forth and multiply and yes the Lord loves babies. but i am sure He wants you to love and appreciate the gifts he has givin you! She has to grow up and be practical come on you live in a 500 sq ft house there is no way! and your refusing to clean which has caused mold and verman only makes your babies sick! GROW UP! argh... ok ok... Im over it deep breath let it go .... ok well on a happier note we willn be getting together with some dear friends of ours whom we havent seen in a while so i am really excited about that.
have a great day

Cute Blogs

once again i state that i am new to blogging, have never done anything like this and all in all not great with computers. pretty much every blog i look at is so nice and cute.. HOW DO I DO THAT?! lol.. mine is so boring I attempted putting a few photos of my pets up and they didnt go where i wanted them and they are huge lol oh well one day maybe someone will fill me in on the secrets to cute blogs.. sigh..

cleanin and bakin

hello everyone. well i finaly have a couple days off so im gonna be bustin my butt to get the house super clean. I wanna go through all of my cupboards and shelves and closets and get rid of anything i dont need and clean them all up. I am also going to attempt building a simple island for my kitchen for a little extra cupboard space as well as counter space. woo hoo.... yesterday i noticed that my bananas are goin bad pretty bad pretty fast i think its because my house is a little cool.. oh well that means banana bread is on its way yumm.. i found a new recipe for sour cream banana bread that i will try out, ive made a bunch of other kinds of banana bread so this one shall be a new spin on an old classic. have a great day

work

so remember when i mentioned that my hubby was supposed to be off of work for 2 - 4 weeks which worried me so i was bustin my butt trying to get extra hours at my work? well it turns out he only had one week off thank goodness. so i worked myself into a good stress for nothing. oh well. ugh approx a year ago i was eating some bacon and broke a toothy in half! so after spending 3 hours at the dentist and a lot of money they fixed it up and said i would be fine, i asked them if i should consider getting a crown on it so it doesnt break again in the future. they told me it wouldnt be neccessary but if i wanted to spend a bunch more money then i could get it done.... well i shouold have listened to myself and gotten it done! yesterday sure enough the damn thing broke in half again so back to the dentist i go woo hoo... ugh.. have a great day everyone

low point and relizations

no matter how hard i try not to think of the idea that i may never be a mother, there is alway someone or something there to remind me of it. It becomes so overwhelming sometimes and i try to keep my head up and act like it doesnt bother me that much, but my faux wall of indifference is starting to fall. one of these days im gonna see another pregnant lady go by and just snap, ill just start bawling or become angry or just not be able to go out! Im praying that i will learn to let this go and be happy with the treasures that i do have already. which brings me to my relization: I believe i am trying to fill that gap of no kids with pets. no sane person with as many animals that i already have would still want more and yet whenever i see a baby somethin or other i want it. its become a lot although i love all of my animals very much i have to remind myself that they are pets and not my actual babies sometimes. its rather pathetic.. ohh.. i find myself always going on about them and thankfully people understand or have thier own pets and do the same thing. my poor husband he is so very supportive but i think he is stressed out by it some days, our newest puppy he really didnt want(although he did fall in love with him along with me) he was able to be practical and say we cant have another dog, but nope not me i needed him he was my baby. why cant i just be normal? is that so much to ask? i keep reminding myself that God has some kind of plan for us, but its trying to be patient and understanding of that plan that im just having the damndest time with.

painting

well blogger world the day finally came.. i painted my kitchen, its only been 2 months in waiting lol. a few months ago i bought the paint and supplies to paint my kitchen however time did not allow me to get it done. everything ended up under the kitchen sink waiting to be used. well no more! i got it done today woo hoo.. so from a boring yellow to a soft creamy mint green, looks so nice.

no bread

well i ended up getting called to work and then some of my friends wanted to go to a movie so i didnt make any bread oh well i guess i will have to try another day. what is new well my puppy is almost 5 months and still acts very immature at times im trying to let it go but it can be frustrating, for example i came home yesterday to discover that he had eaten my good pair of winter boots and peed in the house which he hasnt done in a long time. we were only gone for about 2.5 hours so that shouldnt have happened. I have to keep reminding myself that our firts dog was a miracle puppy i guess (never had an accident in the house fully trained by 3 months never any chewing or humping, wanted to learn and please us) where as Ace the new puppy is a typical puppy. oh well he will grow out of it soon. Hmm what else is new well I have started attempting to entertain again, we are hosting a bbq on friday and i will be throwing and Epicure party in a few weeks. so thats good. However for a low point this month has come and gone still not pregnant so a shit load more testing, monitoring, and experimenting await me in a couple day woo hoo. itll be worth it in the end i guess. ok ill write to you all later. ciao

making bread

alrighty blogging world, today i want to try something new, making artisan breads. I have made banana loaf and such before but never any actual nice artisan breads so that is a project for today... we will see how it goes.

getiing motivated

hello all, so i have finally admitted to myself that im kind of letting myself go a bit.. ugh.. you know what i mean.. ive only been married 5 years and already put on 15 pounds, i dont worry about my overall health and apperance as much as i used to or should. Before i would never go out with out being in generally good shape, havin my hair, make up, clothes and accessories all done up right.. now im kind of like well its not too bad, or not too many bpeople will see me! how pathetic right? so like i stated earlier im gonna try to stay positive about all, so the positive in this means that i realize my issue and get to fix it. im gonna start workin out again, im gonna care about my appearance more. I also want to start entertaining again and going out more. good start i think.
terrible sister inlaw update: as i explained earlier she is pregnant with her 4th and doesnt care, she lives in a 500 sq ft house so she has stated that the new baby will either stay in the basement or kitchen, i vote for the kitchen its not as bad, although it has food, mold and fecal matter every where at least its not cold dank and unfinished. poor baby.
Infertility update: still nothin