no work and side projects

so we just found out that my hubby will have a couple weeks off of work due to a screw up at the factory they supply for. so like i said i am going to try to stay positive and look at the bright side... bright side of the situation means more time for him to do renos around the house, more work for me, and... im not sure yet but we will get there. Another side project ive decided to work on is making a lot of my own dog foods, like i said earlier i have 3 dogs and i want them to eat the best i can provide for them, sadly a lot of the dog foods at the stores arent great, so i have looked up some recipees for wet and dry dog foods and im gonna give it a whirl. Thankfully my dogs arent picky so Im sure theyll love it no matter what. good night blogging world.

more treatments

so i have to go back to the labratory in a week, woo hoo i get a week and a half off then its and hour each way back and forth everyday to the lab for more monitoring and testing everyday. when will it pay off. im hoping one day, however i am starting to lose faith again, after being relaxed and happy with what i had for a while there. I know its from the news that my terrible sister in law is pregnant again- get this everyone they live in a 500 square foot house, no yard already have 3 kids and a large dog, and yet she has gotten bored of the kids she has and the lack of attention and free gifts and supplies people give her so she went and got pregnant again! I get to sit here going through a pile of shit just to try to get pregnant and not misscarry again and she just blinks and is pregnant! argh.. its so hard to stay positive, as my previous post stated i wouldf like to try to be happy more often, so I am venting this now, then i am going to remind myself of the awsome husband i have the great family of pets that i am privelaged to mother and the good house and job that we have. I am now going to try to move on.. for now anyways.. until i hear about the terrible sister in law again.

happiness

so on my way home from work yesterday i was wondering "how hard would it be to always be happy?" i wonder... to always make the best out of a situation, to turn a bad day into a good day, to easily brush off the negative, etcc.. i would imagine its next to impossible for the average person, but i think i may attempt it, to try to always be happy. hmmm... wonder how long ill last lol.

just starting

well hello blogging world ive never done this and havent known anyone who did until recently a coworker suggested i try it as a way to get suggestions on life and a way to possibly find support for lifes challenges. so lets see where to start, well i am a full time employed married woman, who has a great house full of animals and a husband whom i love with all of my heart. i am lucky in so many ways but one for almost 5 years we have been trying to have a baby with only 3 miscarriages as the result. the doctors are now saying the only option left is daily monitoring and then an IUI if that doesnt work well than thats it. nadda. what else well as wierd as it sounds i guess im old fashioned i have this desire to be the perfect wife and mother(to my animals for now i guess lol) a stepford wife if you will, so i try hard to accomplish this goal but most days i feel i fall short. now my husband is always happy and supportive and i wish i could share in his relaxed happiness, but nope. I have 3 awsome dogs well 1 is still a puppy and a bit of a handfull lol. 2 fat cats. 4 reptiles and the newest addition to our family are 2 snakes. We are always renovating in the hopes of moving one day soon and i have a full family both on my side and the inlaws side, which at times can be too much to handle (but i guess thats like most families lol)
well i guess thats a good start, we will see where this goes.. thanks